What if the things that you fear are stopping you from flying. . . .
We tend to avoid what scares us because of its potential to hurt us. Maybe it's hurt you before or maybe you just have a bad feeling and you just don't trust it. What if i told you that the time you've spent fearing that/those things has be the time you've wasted not being where purpose has wished to advance you to. . .
To the little girl who spent the entire summer basking in the glory of the sun. . . To the little girl who spent her summer under the shade of a tree reading a book. . .To the little girl who spent her summer diving into the pools of water that made her feel like the prettiest of mermaids. . .To the little girl who spent her summer lacing up her sneakers to run down the road of unlimited possibilities. . . To the little girl who spent her summer posing in front of a camera envisioning herself as a model who's beauty radiated far beyond a lens. . . To the little girl who spent her summer writing--creating the world she wished to live in. . . To the Little girl who spent her summer on a phone fantasizing about what life will be like living on the other side of that screen. . . To the little who spent her summer with a paint brush creating masterpieces that will cause others to master peace as they stare at them. . . To little girl who spent her summer singing her heart out for her voice to be heard or the little girl who danced her way to more and more happiness. . . To the little girl who spent her summer relinquishing the control that life had on her and who learned to walk to the beat of her own her drum. . . To the little girl who spent her summer learning to love herself . . . To the little girl who spent her summer discovering her beauty and identifying her flawless flaws. . . To the little girl who spent her summer finding her voice. . . .
The weirdest, scariest, most terrifyingly annoying, "unsurest", busiest, most frightening, dumbest, "vulnerablest" place to be is in your feelings. Our feelings have a way of making us believe that what's current is "real" and that what's real is permanent. Not always the case. Our feelings are a temporary place of emotions where we set up shop, build our house and live because of the influence of them. Feelings literally influence EVERYTHING--Our mind, our heart, our spirit, our countenance, our moods. Everything. There isn't one thing that we do in our everyday lives that doesn't have the ability to "put us in our feelings"; however when we stay there....that's where the problem comes in. The influence of our feelings navigate our next steps. How we move, where we stay, how we respond. Feelings are real but they're controllable as well. Faith shows reminds us that we can trust that things will get better.
They say "you cant know where you're going until you know where you've been." Others say "how far you go depends on how far you're willing to go." Often times we think about the direction in which we want our lives to go, where we think we will be, where we plan for it to be, and where we wish and hope we'd be; but the reality is... where we will be is already programmed we just have to make sure we're in tune with the route. Where we go and how far we go depends on the choices that we make. The choices that we make can't necessarily deter us from where we supposed to be or change where we're supposed to be for that matter but it can hinder our progress from getting there. Whether it be fear, whether it be bad choices, whether it be distractions, the programmed direction in which we are supposed to go will meet us eventually; however the condition of where and how we arrived depends on the choices we make today !!!
3.7415 weeks, 26 days, 37,440 minutes, 224,6400 seconds... The end of the fourth quarter is swiftly approaching. This game has been ONE. FOR. THE. BOOKS. A book that some of us would rather not read again. A book that some of us had no desire of finishing. For some it may have been a book that was alllllaaaatttt! Everything mapped out the way you wanted it to, all of your wishes came true and everything you set your mind to; you accomplished. The fourth quarter is that time of the game that you give your all. The part of the game that counts. Fourth quarter is that part of the year...I mean game... that you become that more determined to complete a "WHEN". No matter how well you've played, how much you're winning by, or how many points your opponent may have on you, you do your best to catch up for a victory. Fourth quarter is end of that "final round" . . . it's when you get that SECOND WIND! It's that sudden burst of energy that comes when you relaize you're on a "time frame" ...... The plays in the fourth quarter are all about that final shot....The shot that sum up your "when's and losses". . .
SUMMMMMEEEERRRRRRR SUUUUMMMMMEEEERRRRRR SUUUUMMMMMEEEEEERRRRRRTTTTIIMMMMMMEEE!!
Some people get Summer once a year but I'm blessed enough to have ALLLLL YEEAAAAARRRRRR ROOOOOUUUNNNNDDDDD!!!!!! But WHERE HAS SUMMER GONE!!!!!!!!!! I GOT A NEW SISTER WHEN SHE WAS IN FOURTH GRADE AND NOWWW SHE'S ABOUT TO BE A SENIOR IN HIGH SCHOOL. **raises hand** HOW DAT WORK!! Am i getting old?? Or is that because i'm missing milestones that im missing her grow?
A big part of mentoring is helping the person looking up to you understand their worth and self value. While I am positive that im not an easy mentee (Hey Fee B lmbo) I will be the first to admit that THIS IS NOT AN EASY JOB! You are constantly on your toes and always attempting to being a good example and role model. It's like the pressure to NOT fail is always on. You have to push and inspire even when it seems super duper hard. you have to leave room for fault while sternly correcting and telling them when they're wrong. you have to leave room and create paths for growth. Lola has not in any way been easy but when she listens --in the end (smh) it makes it worth it. My Baby is growing on me and i dont know how to feel about it. She is literally blossoming right before my eyes. she went from wanting to always being with me to being her own person. Once i realized i couldn't stop her from turning 18(i checked in often to make sure), i knew that prom and graduation would soon follow. Again being trusted with you is not easy, but i dont have a single regret. This weekend one of my prayers for her came to frituion. I constantly ask God to show and remind her that she is Queen and to show me how to set an example of what a Queen is and how a Queen carries herself and this weekend.....She was crowned. ...MY BABY IS A QUEEEEENNNNN!!!!!!!!
sRaise your hand if you've ever been personally victimized by an older sibling/cousin growing up while playing "life threatening" hand games!!! Ever play the hand game "Slaps" were you take turns slapping your opponents hand until they gave in? How about "Mercy", where you intertwine your hands between theirs and bend it back as far as you could until they give in? Or my personal favorite: BLOODY KNUCKLES! This one here was only if you wanted to be able to stomp with the "big dogs". In this game there was one opponent and you'd take turns balling your fist up and punching it into their fist. The secret to these games was that there was usually a mutual agreement that you would "go slow" and not hit so hard starting out; that way both parties would have a lasting chance. When we'd reach that knuckle hits that had power and force behind it you knew that your fist hurt but you wouldn't dare give in. These games required good poker faces. You could flinch but you better not cry. It was the ultimate sign of weakness.
WHEN YOU GET YOUR PLANE TICKET PLEASE LET ME KNOW!!!! I'LL CA$HAPP YOU MY MONEY!!!!
After seeing this five times (three times in 24hours-- HEYY!! judge your mother!) But....like i was saying......
I'm pretty sure im exaggerating but again . . . .JUDGE YOUR MOTHER! BLACK PANTHER WAS AMAZING!!!!! It was good in regular dolby digital (twice), 3-D, IMAX, and IMAX 3-D!!!! (soliciting all prayers for people upset that it isn't clear on the FireStick AAAAAHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAA) No really if you haven't seen this movie yet YUHHHHHH NEEEEEEDDDDD TOOOOOO!!!!!
NO BLACK PANTHER SPOILER ALERTS HERE BUT HUNNNNNEEEEYYYYYY!!!!! FROM CHADWICK BOSEMAN TO MICHAEL B. JORDAN, TO WINSTON DUKE, TO THE "GET OUT" GUY: DANIEL KALUUYA, TO STERLING K BROWN, TO FOREST WHITAKER-- a spoiler alert i will give yall is that IN WAKANDA EVERYONE IS MADE WHOLE -----YALL FOREST WHITAKER HAD A GOOD EYE!!!!! WHHHHHHHAAAAAAAATTTTTTTT!!!
NOW ONTO THE GOODBP STUFFFF......
NOW I COULD BE BIASED BUT THE WOMEN OF WAKKAAAANNNNDDDAAAAAA ARE WHHHHHHHEWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!! YALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!
WELL YALL FOR STARTERS........HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!
WE HAVE MADE IT YET ANUUUTHHHHAAAA ONE **DJ Khaled voice**
I dont know about yall but i never imagined being here. Like literally. Not because i've been out here being triflin but just because it sounds weird. --two thousand eighteen--just sounds like the future to me.... weird right. lmbo.
Last year for me was such a building year. Last year Eran introduced herself to me--and i am her! She was like honey listen "no more of that", "leave that alone", stop trying with that--it's not meant to be", "dont let this break you", "You're better than this", "Listen to this wisdom" "YOU'RE A WHOLE BADDDDDDIIIEEEEEEE" "Don't believe that" "You are not forgotten" "It's not the right time" "Stop comparing yourself" "You're not deemed inadequate because of what you dont have" "Do what you've been planning" "FINISH WHAT YOU STARTED".
My past years living i have had so many questions. Questions that for so long i wondered why they hadn't been answered. The Why Me's, the What if's, the If i could just, If i had enoughs ..... I spent all this time asking questions. Even when i asked. No one had answers. I didnt understand that one day the years would answer themselves. . . .
If a prayer isn't said the car doesn't move.
I remember desiring to drive, then being taught to drive, actually learning to drive and being comfortable driving alone. Lisssstteeennnn A WHOLE PROCESS. Maryland requires driver's education course (no matter your age) for every new potential license driver. I was so excited but freaking out! First of all my grandfather enrolled me before i knew anything about it (I mean i guess he was tried of driving me around bllahhhhh). First day of class i assumed i'd be behind the wheel but no Honey. . . this teacher taught on car accidents for like two weeks straight. After that i was convinced that this was probably not for me. I have trouble not falling UP the stairs sometimes--and you are asking me to operate a whole machine-engined vehicle? Yea, No, probably not. I recall her explaining "I'm telling you about all of the risks before i teach you to drive so that you know what NOT to do. No worries i will be here with you every step of the way. No one will be licensed until we're comfortable enough with your skill to even send you to the DMV." Yall the pressure was on and mine was raised.
Ever hold onto a dandelion because you think it's too pretty to blow? Ever have that loser that reminds you that "It's only a weed" **insert side eye** I remember being young having the hope instilled in me that these are the flowers that you wish upon. You close your eyes and give it a BIG BLOW (it never failed that with the little feathers would get all in your eyes and mouth) now there's spitting and wiping your eyes out because you never had the discipline to keep your eyes closed because you had to witness the petals fly away. After the initial shock and what felt like blindness you're left with this bare stem....
This year for my birthday i went back to a place deemed the "Most Magical Place in All the Land", a place where "Dreams Come True." Disney World. Nostalgic vibes of childhood characters. The Once Upon a Time Fairy Tale Princesses. The place of imagination. Going back this time was a little different because I had my sights set on doing everything I didn't get to do the last in the Disney Parks and Universal Studios.
I walked about around these parks for five days with the biggest grin on my face. One thing I did this year that wasn't planned is i read the Imagineer's Wall full of quotes by the infamous Walt Disney. Reading these quotes reminded me of both his successes and failed attempts. There a common thing that stuck out to me reading all these: he reminded the reader on each wall to BEGIN.
That little girl who got her heart broken at a young age never expected for it to happen, but as a result she blanketed herself in fear and hid. Maybe her father never showed to pick her up, maybe that boy from her class didn't like her back. Maybe he did and then broke her heart. Maybe she watched her mother be beaten and verbally assaulted, or maybe she loss someone close to her. Maybe she was the one abused. Maybe she was picked on for the way she looked and because of what she didn't have. Maybe she deserved what was happening to her. The little girl living in these events never expected to feel this kind of hurt; she never thought she'd have to heal from this kind of pain, she never expected to have to wear these bandages.. .after all she was just a child. . .But before anyone knew to nurture this little girl and her wounds, she grew up
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"Unbothert": the state of mind, position and or role that one takes in the event someone comes to "troubles" their spirit. Being unbothert is an attitude that one takes when one realizes that they have leadership over situations that invade their space. One can choose to be worried or one can take the dominant role and chose to be simply unbothert. Understanding that the individual (space interrupter) will continue to be themselves; the unbothert superior must make that decision to not compromise their "space" by stopping down to the level of the invader. In order to remain unbothert one must first examine the space. Then the situation must be considered. After that it is imperative for the unbothert individual to realize that their response can cause more damage than smiles:: once this decision is made, the invader has one of two options: Flee or continue to invade with the risk of being hurt. The superior however has one choice: he/she must figure out the amount of space they're going to allow the invader to invade BUT they understand that just because there's an invasion DOES NOT mean that they have to let their land be conquered. It is then when this battle takes place: the superior must deal with affects and effects (how it will make the other person feel and the damage that it WILL cause to the individual) do they deal with a small bite or unleash all of his might. . . .
Persuading yourself "otherwise" yesterday is the reason many of us are not where we'd prefer to be today. We spend so much time convincing ourselves that what we want could never be ours and not believing that what we need could actually be tangible. . . .
"Stop allowing the repercussions of people dictate you living your life. TAKE THAT LEAP! YOU NEVER NEEDED THEIR PERMISSION!! as long as my Father in is pleased I shall do as I please....
Her Majesty's Crown is Forever.
She wears it with Pride.
Her strength is her virtue.
She is devoted to protecting her territory and all connected to it.
Her existence was a requirement for longevity of man.
Her body house's life..literally
Without her life could not exist.
Her legacy is one that could NEVER die
She is the canvas of all things beautiful
She's underrated, she's misunderstood at times and she is a force to be reckoned with......
Steamy hot showers all end the same way: The mirror is completely foggy. The reflection of who used to be in there is now is either blurry or nonexistent. When you look in that foggy mirror you don't see your normal self which means that you have the self permission to be absolutely ANYBODY YOU WANT TO BE. . . ..that is until the fog begins to clear. . . . .